I am always thinking though, my mind is always occupied with
thoughts, lots of stuff. Good thoughts, bad thoughts, worries…I should check my
blood pressure but I am worried to check because I think it would be above
normal. At this moment I am listening to Celine Dion aka Celina Odion according
to my Bini people and drinking tea which I absolutely love, all to calm myself.
I have found that growing plants calms me, so I am trying to
consciously embrace it fully now.
I picked up this drawing just now and I asked myself, why
didn’t I ever finish this? I have had it for about 2 years now, I remember when
I started it…
I am afraid of the outcome, doesn’t look like what I had in
mind when I started, I am paranoid but this work however small is
important, every small piece of drawing, every piece of unused paper I cut from
the posters I collect, they all form a part of a larger piece of some work that
might eventually get finished.
I remember when I was working with Olu Amoda
during my one year internship in 2003 or was it 2004?!... Anyway Mr Olu would
always say that every piece of metal he had left over from the gates or windows
and art he made were very important (you dare not take any piece of object from his studio, but I took a small piece sir...I needed a souvenir ..what?!!).
Now that I think of it, I realize they were more important
than the main body that bore them in the beginning... Process... time...
I am going to embrace every unfinished
drawing and face them head on starting with this one. I want so bad to tell a
beautiful story of my journey in this art I do, 10 years, 20 years, 30... from now. Keeping every fragment of material (as storage permits) and every fragment of thought and imagination through this blog (as PHCN, aka NEPA, and internet permits)
Dear blog I have missed you dearly…
